Good morning!

I can’t tell if I’m feeling better or not yet, as I haven’t tried to do anything too physical, but I’m hoping I’m getting better.

I haven’t exercised this week. There were a couple days I wanted to take a walk, but I’ve been too sick.

Monday was a rotten eating day, but the rest of the week was ok.

I’ve been thinking about starting my annual sugar fast early this year. Usually, I do it between Halloween and Thanksgiving, but I’m frustrated with how I seem to do great for a week or so and then crash into a major junk food indulgence. I think I’d make some good headway if I avoided those. My main concern is the soy milk I use for my protein shakes. It is very sweet, with brown rice syrup or something in it, and I need my shakes. So I don’t know if I should allow the soymilk as an exception, or if I should try to substitute with dairy. I’d really rather not do that. I don’t like the texture as much.

My friend Katie wants to recommit by trying to lose 10 pounds by December. I’d be happy with that, and it should be very doable. December is 12 weeks away. I put a sticky note on my calendar with 10 boxes to check off, 1 for each pound.

Anyone else want to try?

I’m up a pound from last week, but it’s due to female issues. I’ve been extremely regular for myself the past few months, and it’s quite irritating. I don’t like it, though I’m sure it’s a good sign health-wise.

It still sucks.

Good morning! This week was pretty bad, health-wise. I’ve been totally absorbed with painting my basement, and I haven’t taken the time to eat well. Plus, Nate bought cookies and ice cream confections this week, and I’ve been eating them.

BUT, I’ve been moving a lot of furniture, climbing, reaching, bending, squatting, etc. and I’ve worn myself out repeatedly, so while not aerobic, I’ve been working my body.

And it’s looking really good down there.

How was your week?

This was a great week. I ate great. I exercised three times. I’m a little lighter on the scale today, but that’s probably because I didn’t eat enough yesterday.

This morning, my friend had about 4 dozen donuts at her house when I stopped by on my exercise walk, and I resisted.

How was your week?

Well, I’m pretty happy right now with how things are going. I still need to resume regular exercise, but I’ve been eating well. I haven’t been formally recording my meals into Calorie King, and to be honest, I’m probably not getting quite up to my minimum calorie intake, BUT, I’m trying to keep myself balanced. I’m getting my vitamins in my homemade protein shakes, and I’m trying to eat 3 times a day. (Food is still kind of repulsive to me, for whatever reason).

I feel good. I’m down to between 217 and 218, fluctuating. I hit the 215’s one day. That was exciting. My pants feel looser again, and my shirts are looking looser. My new bras have either stretched out a little bit, (not likely), or I’ve shrunk there a tad, too. I’m fastening them on the tightest hook.

This is all great for motivation.

Nate and I went golfing Thursday night, I think for the first time since the car accident 4+ years ago. It was fabulous, and great exercise. It was SO nice to be back out there, on the course. I hope that is something we can get back into.

How was your week?

Good morning.

I actually did rather well this week. Or, the last half of it, anyway. I only got in an hour of good exercise, but I ate well. It’s so hard for me to understand, when I eat the way I’m supposed to, why I struggle with it so much. Because it’s not hard. I feel so ridiculous.

Anyway, I’m pleased with my improvement this week, and will settle with that.

How was your week?

It’s been a rough few days. I’m tired of spending the first few hours of every day picking nits out of hair. (I’m writing this on Monday, pretending it’s Saturday for continuity’s sake, but my fatigue and attitude are most definitely inclusive of Sunday and Monday morning).

This afternoon (Saturday) we went to Nordstrom so I could buy a new bra. They still have the same bra I bought two two years go. Today, I bought one in the exact same size. Sigh. I know that the last two years of Health Group haven’t been a complete waste, but at this precise moment, it feels like they have.

The same size.

I’m always the same size.

It never changes, no matter what I do.

(The last two statements aren’t technically true, but it’s how I feel).

Now, I know that years ago, after the massive and rapid weight gain, but before the perpetual yet insufficient efforts to change, I was SO much worse off that I am now. I had no energy. No self esteem. And I couldn’t take a casual walk around the corner of the block from our apartment to church without being seriously winded.

(We’re not talking far, here. It was extremely pathetic).

I played softball a few weeks ago and didn’t die. It actually felt good. This is huge. This is worth it. I am healthier than I would have been if I hadn’t continued Health Group.

Why do I feel like such a loser?

The same size. The same bra.

I don’t think I have the heart to focus on weight loss for a little while, but I’m going to continue to try to be good to my body. To exercise it and make sure it gets the nutrients it needs. I may eat more calories than I should at times, but thanks to what I’ve learned from Calorie King, I can make sure that I at least give my body enough, and consistently.

Sorry if I’m sounding like a downer. I don’t think this resignation will last long, but it’s how I feel right now, and I’m indulging it.

Same size. Same bra.

Two.

Years.

Later.

Good morning. It’s been a crazy weekend around here, with friends from out of town, relatives from out of town, too many social gatherings, wanting to attend them all…

It’s been a lot of fun.

I had some stellar days this week, and some completely rotten ones as far as Health Group goes. One thing interesting that I learned is that Calorie King gives me more calories burned for weeding than it does for walking 3 mph. My goal was to work in the yard 30 minutes each day last week. I ended up working 75 minutes one day, and being too sore to get out there since.

So I’m gearing up for this week. How was yours?

Good morning!

I made a little progress this week. I still didn’t manage any formal exercise, but I ate better, did some calorie counting, and yesterday I went to the store and loaded up on safe foods to eat so next week is already looking better.

I dropped back down into the teens at 219.4. That was a pleasant surprise.

Nate bought Harry Potter last night at midnight. We stayed up ’til 5 reading it, then slept ’til 9:30. We’ve made arrangements for the girls today, so we can read all day. I’m hoping to get done before church tomorrow, because I really don’t want to hear any spoilers.

Having finished my Sea Silk Stole, and my Daisy Swatch Turned Scarf (I haven’t shown you that one yet), and all my lovely spinning fiber from Black Sheep…. I’m not sure how I’m going to pass the time while Nate reads. So far, I’ve decided to continue with what I’ve been doing the last few days, which is making myself finish things. I’ve resumed spinning rolags from that wretched fleece. I like the resulting yarn, hate the fleece.

I have the remaining wool evenly divided into three bags by color, and only the light colored bag is carded. The medium and dark bags still need to be. The light rolags have been spinning up ok, though it took me awhile to get used to them again, after all the nice roving I’ve been spinning, but when I tried to card more rolags….

I just hate this stupid fleece. So I’m not sure how long I’ll be able to take it.

Hi all.

I actually weighed myself this morning for the first time in weeks, and was pleasantly surprised that I was only 221.2. I haven’t been exercising outside of softball last night and this morning, and some physical therapy on Monday. I haven’t been watching what I eat more than half heartedly.

I want a pep talk. I’m going to talk to Nate and sort through my thoughts and try to figure out what’s holding me back because honestly, I don’t mind doing the diet. I feel great when I do, I like doing it, I’m still able to eat the things I love… there’s no reason to not do it, other than my own laziness.

And that’s a stupid reason.

So, that’s my week. I’m still thrilled beyond all reason that I can run the bases and field balls without passing out. My quads have felt like they were going to give out on me a couple times (weak, not pain), but my lungs and heart have been up to the exertion, and it’s felt great.

How y’all doin’?