Last week was ok. I still can’t find my scale, but I feel bigger. And that’s ok too. I’m going to do my sugar purge again between Halloween and Thanksgiving to regain some control. It will be good for me. In the past when I’ve done this, it’s helped me to enjoy the rest of the holidays like a sane person, eating in moderation because I’d killed the craving monster. My exception to this is going to be Nate’s birthday on Thursday, and a special pre-Thanksgiving dinner we’re going to on Saturday, to warmly send off some friends who are moving to Georgia.

Abigail and Olivia each have homework charts where they can put a star sticker on each day that they do their homework with a good attitude (no yelling, stomping, crying, dragging it out for 3 hours, etc). When they get 5 stickers, we go out on a mommy or daddy-daughter date.

I made myself an eating chart yesterday, so when I eat no sugar junk for the whole day, and I’ve made sure I’ve fed my body well, I get a star. My incentive at the moment is simply to have some success. And I’m not even talking about weight loss. I want to stick to something. I want to re-prove to myself that I’m capable of self control. I’m excited. I have one star already, and I’m going for two.

How are you doing?

I’m not going to talk about last week. It sucked in terms of Health Group.

Anyone have anything?

I’ve made some new plans and commitments to myself for this week, but after the humiliation of shirking the goals and commitments I made last week, I don’t have the heart to get into it here.

It’s so hard trying to be healthy and keep a house going and keep resistant kids going on homework and help out in class at school and feed everyone and carry and care for a baby all day and provide myself with some down time by knitting occasionally, or if it’s been a particularly trying day, just staring at the wall and and and….

On a happy note, we had an acorn woodpecker on our deck last week.

It was SO cool, it made us late for kindergarten.

Unfortunately, I have more to gripe about today. Some of which is knitting related, so if I have time later, I’ll post again.

I ate a lot this week, particularly this weekend while my mom is here. I’m going to set a goal to do physical therapy every day this week and eat my protein and fruit shakes for breakfast and lunch. All week. That’s my goal.

Did anyone have a good week? Tell me about it.

I don’t have much to report, other than being out of protein powder and almost out of vitamins. So I’m going shopping today. I’ve been doing enough shakes to keep my energy up and keep me feeling good, but not daily like I used to. I’m getting back on that. It was good.

Anyone have anything?

I’ve lost my scale. Lost it. I don’t know how that happens, considering it hasn’t to my knowledge left the house, but it’s gone, so I have no idea what I weigh. I bought a bunch of new jeans at a sale a few weeks ago that fit better, so I also can’t gauge by clothes. I hope I’m not climbing. But I feel good.

This past week started out very well. I did treadmill Monday, weights and PT Tuesday, and went for a walk on Wednesday. I don’t remember what happened Thursday and Friday to keep me from exercising, but I didn’t. I ate pretty well until Thursday night, when I ate too much thai food, which seemed to be the start of a self indulgent downfall. But I still feel good.

How was your week?

Good morning. It’s lovely out, and I’ve gotten the older two off to school. Veronica is eating breakfast. I’ve eaten a shake…. I think I’m going to go for a walk.

No exercise last week, but I got a lot done in my house. It looks pretty nice, and has been reduced to the status of “cluttered”, as opposed to the “site of mass destruction” that it has resembled since our floors were redone. So I’m happy with that. I ate well last week, until last night. I’m happy with that too. I’m back on track this morning. I feel good, mostly, but I’m not going to get into that.

How did you do?

I started my Health Group post on Saturday, but it never got finished and I scrapped it.

I’m tired. I don’t know what the problem is, but I’m really tired. Last week, I only ended up with one walk and one day of weights and physical therapy. And I didn’t eat as well as I’d hoped. This kind of surprises me, as I was so pumped up at the beginning of last week. For me, I think exercise is the key. I am much more disciplined in my eating, both quality and quantity, when I’m exercising. In a way, I don’t want to waste the effort I spent exercising by horfing. But when I don’t exercise, and I see something I want, well…. that’s that.

I’m feeling a bit under the weather. Just a smidge, but it’s contributing to my lack of energy. Today I hope to plan a bit. Plan out my food for the week. Re-talk myself up for exercising. Since I am tired today, I think I’ll do weights and PT instead of hitting the treadmill.

Anyone have anything to share?

We’ve been so ridiculously busy. Saturday night, Nate took us to a concert at a club (I was going to link the club, but they have some not-so-nice sounding bands listed on their homepage, and I don’t want to give the wrong impression) to see the Ditty Bops. It was a lot of fun. The house was packed, and the girls (my girls, who were standing right in front of the stage) were invited up on stage to dance and sing the last part of Sister Kate. Abby was invited up again to talk about a boy at school she thinks is cute as an intro to one of their songs, Obsessive Crush. They had the time of their lives. It’s going to be hard to convince Olivia that you don’t usually get to go on stage and sing with the band at concerts. The crappy thing is….

I didn’t have a camera.

No camera, no video, no imagery to help remember the occasion. It sucks. Cameras aren’t usually allowed in concerts. At least not the concerts I used to go to, so I didn’t even think about it. Of course, my hands were full all night with Clark, and who would have guessed my children would end up being part of the show?

Sucks.

Health Group-

I got nuthin’. BUT, I’m starting today. I swear. I’m going to eat one of my homemade shakes for breakfast and lunch, and I’m going to take Clark on a walk as soon as I’m done typing this. Tomorrow, I’ll do my weights and PT.

I’m tired of being fat. I think I know what I need to do to change it. I just never seem to be able to do it long enough to make much of a difference. But I did lose inchage over the summer. A wee little bit. And I’m going for that again.

Plus, my resting heart rate drops 20 beats per minute when I’m exercising daily. And when I stop, it jumps right back up to 80. Which completely annoys me.

So that’s my post for the day. I have knitting to show, but it’ll be tomorrow. Today, I’m exercising, darnit.

I’m cheating and post dating this entry for Saturday. As usual, things have been very busy. We went for a great walk on Sunday, and I did my physical therapy and weights last Saturday. I’m still trying to get back into a schedule. Nate wants to work out together at 1 o’clock every afternoon, after V goes to school and Clark goes down for a nap. Sounds good. We’ll see if it sticks. I have to admit to being a bit skeptical, as Nate is very busy with work right now.

I have to keep telling myself that I exercised daily for 5 consecutive weeks this summer, and the two weeks I added great eating were fantastic. I did it. I can do it again.

Part of what’s been throwing me off that my house was turned upside down while we were away for my sister’s wedding, while the floors were being refinished. And there are still contractors in my house nearly every day. That just messes stuff up. But we made good progress on the house today (Monday), and I’ve been working on it daily all last week during Clark’s naps. I’m slowly getting there.